WANTING TO BE LIKE JOSHUA

Dear Family and Friends,

Since the last post where Dan was just released from the hospital, he has been doing well.  He has been able to reduce some of the pain meds he was taking for pain in his back and he has been doing better drinking a decent amount of water each day and even has managed to put back on a few pounds!  We were very encouraged and so we made plans to visit my mom in Florida for a mini reunion.

Recently my sister, Nancy, was able to fly to Pompano Beach, Florida, from her home in Taiwan, to visit Mom.  When she comes to the states we all like to try to see her if at all possible.  Since this is a Benchmark Birthday Year for both Nancy (60) and my Mom (95), all the siblings and spouses made an effort to get to Pompano beach that same week so that 1) we could all be together, which only happens every 4 or 5 years or so, and 2) we could celebrate their important birthdays, even though the actual birth date is a bit later in the year. 

A very YUMMY Carrot Cake was center stage.

Mom was enjoying the family all being together....and doesn't she look GREAT for almost 95?!

Mom and Nancy both enjoying the tributes given to them.

The WHOLE FAMILY :-)

Back Row:  Jim, Dan and John

Next Row: Phil, Sharon, Jodee, Susan

Guests of Honor:  Nancy and Mom

 We were able to visit several of our NY friends (who spend much of the winter elsewhere) on the way to and from Florida, so that was an extra blessing.

The timing of the trip home was dictated by two MRI scans that were scheduled for the morning of the 18th ( Good Friday).  One scan was the routine scan of Dan's brain, and the other one was of his low back for the back surgeon to use to see if there were any surgical procedures that could be done to lessen his back pain.  After the scans we met with Dr. Breneman as usual to discuss the findings of the brain MRI.

Dr. Breneman is a very reserved, soft-spoken man, but that afternoon, he was very somber.  We both could tell immediately that he did not have good news for us.  In the past, on the initial MRI, they have seen one or two new, tiny tumors with the possibility of a couple more which then were confirmed with a high definition CT scan.  But the MRI that day showed 10 specific new tumors with multiple other “spots” that were sure to be confirmed as additional tumors by the HD CT scan.  

Back when Dan first began having multiple stereotactic radiographic treatments, we asked, “How many times can he have this done?”  The answer was, “It isn’t a question of how many times the procedure can be done as much as how many tumors can be treated at once.”  We were told then that if there comes a time when there is a “shower” of tumors showing up rather than a few individual tumors, that would indicate the need for different treatment.  Well, Friday’s findings are what they refer to as a “shower” of new tumors.

The only option left for treating the brain tumors is whole head radiation (WHR).  It would be a series of about 10 treatments, one right after the other, and it would be a one-time shot.  

With the stereotactic radiation, there have been almost no side effects at all with the exception of swelling after one larger tumor was treated and then the recent swelling that occurred from having a tumor treated in an area of the brain that had previously been treated.

But WHR almost always causes some debilitation.  It can (and often does) cause memory loss, cognitive issues, hair loss, fatigue and possibly nausea.  It can also cause hearing loss.  It often leads to dementia.  These effects may be temporary or permanent and the effectiveness is questionable. It may help for a few months or it may not help at all.  You can see that it is not particularly appealing.

Although we went to the doctor’s appointment expecting to hear there were new tumors, we really were not expecting that news and it took both of us by surprise. We could not totally process what we were hearing and Dr. Breneman suggested that we take some time to consider it…to research it and to talk to Dr. Crane (Dan’s oncologist) about it.  Our appointment with Dr. Crane was set for Tues.

So in between Friday afternoon and Tues. morning, we celebrated Good Friday and Easter.  It all seemed more intense and meaningful.  

Friday was more somber and Easter was more glorious.  How good it was to be reminded that ALL that we need for salvation has ALREADY been accomplished and Christ has ALREADY won the victory over death!!

When Tues. came, we were both hoping that maybe there was one more chemo or some other new option to consider….and yet neither of us expected it.  Dr. Crane gave us a more thorough overview of the pros/cons of WHR, saying that if it were he, he would do it, but that we needed to make our decision based on what we believed would be best for Dan. Bottom line is, the choice is to do WHR or to do nothing.  There is no other option.  Chemo is not able to affect brain metastases and besides that, I think we are on or close to the last chemo for kidney cancer.  

It felt a lot like 6 years ago when we received the prognosis of 3 to 6 months.  And yet, this time was different, too.  Although we were stunned by that prognosis 6 years ago, we really did not know what was ahead of us and God gave us much mercy and grace in finding good doctors and the latest treatments.  There was much to DO….we could throw ourselves into doing research and finding second and third opinions and looking for clinical trials and gathering you all to pray for us!  But even as we busied ourselves with all of that activity…we still knew that God was in control.  Dan’s life was still in HIS hands.  We were learning to lean on Him and to trust HIM even as we did our best to use all the gifts of medicine and knowledge and skilled doctors/nurses/technicians.  There were some really hard times and rocky roads along the journey but there was much joy and happiness along the way as well.  

But now we are at a different place.  We have gotten familiar with the journey.  We know the twists and turns in the road and are better at reading the signs along the way.  We have passed through many trials…and yet we are still a bit unprepared it seems.  We left the oncologist’s office with our minds swirling and our emotions in a jumble.  Our immediate reaction was deep sadness…and maybe a bit of fear…..fear of the unknown…  How in the world would we be able to make this choice?

I try to read through the Bible each year.  Sometimes it takes me a year and a quarter or a year and a half to get all the way through, but I just keep going and eventually finish  and then start over again.  Right now, in the Old Testament part of the readings, Israel is in the wilderness but getting close to the end of their journey and needing to capture Canaan so they can enter the promised land.  But they are fearful.  Even after all the miracles they have witnessed first hand….all the mighty things God has done just for THEM, they don’t trust Him.  They think they have to do it themselves!  

As we were driving home from the doctor yesterday, that story came to my mind.  We were being like the Israelites!  God has done so many miracles for US!  He has been so merciful and caring all along this journey….WHY would we think it is up to us now?  HIS plan for us IS the “promised land”!  Whatever that is….wherever that takes us.  The promised land WITH GOD and His plan for us is where we desire to be. We want to be Joshuas….ready to trust God no matter what.  Fearful or not, Joshua chose to believe God and was willing to follow Him, knowing God and knowing that His ways are always better…even when they are hard.   

Two songs have been playing over and over in my head these last few days.  One is a Getty/Townsend song called:

Still, Be Still My Soul, and the other is called “We Will Remember” by Tommy Walker.  The lyrics and the links to them are below:

KEITH & KRISTYN GETTY

Still My Soul Be Still Lyrics

Link to YouTube "Still, Be Still My Soul"    (an ad will pop up first...sorry...it's worth it to wait)

STILL, MY SOUL BE STILL

Still my soul be still
And do not fear
Though winds of change may rage tomorrow
God is at your side
No longer dread
The fires of unexpected sorrow

God You are my God
And I will trust in You and not be shaken
Lord of peace renew
A steadfast spirit within me
To rest in You alone

Still my soul be still
Do not be moved
By lesser lights and fleeting shadows
Hold onto His ways
With shield of faith
Against temptations flaming arrows

Still my soul be still
Do not forsake
The Truth you learned in the beginning
Wait upon the Lord
And hope will rise As stars appear when day is dimming

WE WILL REMEMBER  by Tommy Walker

Link to YouTube "We Will Remember"

Chorus 1
We will remember we will remember
We will remember the works of Your hands
We will stop and give You praise
For great is Thy faithfulness
(REPEAT)

Verse 1
You're our creator our life sustainer
Deliverer our comfort our joy
Throughout the ages You've been our shelter
Our peace in the midst of the storm

Verse 2
With signs and wonders You've shown Your power
With precious blood You showed us Your grace
You've been our helper our liberator
The giver of life with no end

Verse 3
When we walk through life's darkest valleys
We will look back at all You have done
And we will shout our God is good
And He is the faithful one

Misc 1
(BRIDGE)
Hallelujah hallelujah
To the one from whom all blessings flow
Hallelujah hallelujah
To the one whose glory has been shown

Verse 4
I still remember the day You saved me
The day I heard You call out my name
You said You loved me and would never leave me
And I've never been the same

So please continue to pray for us!  Pray that we will be like Joshua….setting our fears aside, trusting God’s plan for us and resting in that; all the while REMEMBERING all that He has done and is doing for us!

OH MY!  How God works...miracle after miracle!  I had already finished the blog today and was only waiting to put in the photos before I posted it and sent out the email.   With our physical therapy appointment and Walmart run (for prescriptions)  this afternoon and then needing to go to the grocery for a dessert for our Bible Study tonight at our house, I did not have time to complete the photos until now.  But just before the Bible Study folks arrived, we got an amazing phone call.

It all began last fall.  Dan's low back pain had gotten worse over the summer and he wanted to get one more opinion about a possible surgical solution so as soon as we got back from NY last fall, we started the ball rolling on getting him in to see Dr. Tobler, one of the premier back surgeons at The Mayfield Clinic here in Cincinnati.  It took quite a while to get an appointment and when we saw him, he really wasn't sure he could help Dan. He wanted to have some additional X-rays and have a specialist radiologist look at them and then get back to Dan.  Well, we hadn't heard from him in quite a while and with all of Dan's serious issues the last couple of months, that had sort of retreated to a back burner somewhere.  But just before we left for Florida, we got a call from Dr. Tobler's office to get a new MRI of his back and then made an appointment for us to see him yesterday.

After the devastating news from last Friday, and then again from Dr. Crane yesterday morning, it seemed pointless to even go to that appointment.  But we dutifully went and waited to hear what Dr. Tobler thought about Dan's back.  I suggested to Dan that we not muddy the waters by telling him about his brain scan;  we would just listen to what he thought about his back and tell him we would think about his suggestions.  

When Dr. Tobler came in, he began the discussion by telling us he had seen the latest brain MRI.  That was a surprise.....and then he wanted to know what we were thinking about doing about it.  We told him we really were still processing it all and had not made a decision.  He went on to talk about Dan's back, saying that it had not changed much since the fall and unless Dan was in excruciating pain, it might be best to try a back brace for right now and just watch it , while taking prudent precautions of not lifting heavy things or doing hard activities.  But then he returned the conversation to his brain scan.  He asked us if Dr. Breneman had conferred with Dr. Warnick (Chair in Neurosurgical Oncology at the UC College of Medicine.  He is also Co-Director of the Precision Radiotherapy Center in West Chester, where Dan has had most of his radiation.)  We really did not know.  We were so stunned when we were talking with Dr. Breneman, we never thought to ask that.  He suggested that we might want to get his opinion and offered to talk with him and ask him to call us.  This was yesterday.  He called tonight.   He felt we were jumping the gun a bit in considering WBR and suggested instead that they approach the stereotactic radiographic surgery from a different angle, going for the bigger, more dangerous tumors rather than trying to obliterate all of them.  That would buy Dan some more time without the more serious side effects of WBR and perhaps give the chemo a chance to get ahead of the disease in the rest of his body.  

We had not even realized that that was an option! We are so glad we kept our appointment with Dr. Tobler and very grateful for his thoroughness and for his willingness to call Dr.  Warnick on our behalf and VERY grateful for Dr. Warnick taking the time to call us and discuss this over the phone and then talking with Dr. Breneman about it. 

As it stands right now, we are waiting for a call from Dr. Breneman's office to set up the high definition CT scan that he and Dr. Warnick with merge with the Fusion MRI Dan just had.  Then they will plot out which tumors they will attack with radiation.  

In the meantime, he upped Dan's dose of steroids and suggested that his symptoms he had which sent him to the hospital last month were more likely a case of adrenal fatigue from being on steroids long enough for his adrenal to quit working adequately.  

We are SO GRATEFUL for this latest development and feel it is the right thing to do at this time.  We feel strongly God was moving on our behalf to cause all of these things to happen so quickly.  For the few who already knew...THANK YOU for your prayers!!  We have a God who hears and acts!  For most of you who had no idea that this was going on....you are also precious to us...and we covet your continued prayers for all of these later developments as well as for the requests put forward in the earlier part of this update.  We STILL want to be like Joshua!  Love, Jodee and Dan

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RELEASED!

Thank you all so much for praying!  The last couple of weeks have been "an experience" and we are happy to say that things are improved!

Today is Tuesday and Dan is being released from the hospital this morning.  He has an appointment (made weeks ago) across the parking lot at 11 am so we are pushing to get out of here by then. 

Dr. Crane is pleased with Dan's progress, as are we!  He has been on oral meds for 48 hours now and has been eating well.  NO NAUSEA!  And his thinking is much clearer, which is a relief to both of us!  They will take a month to wean him off if the steroids, which they have been using to fight the swelling in his brain. 

The appointment later this morning is with Dr. Breneman, the oncology radiologist. He will be checking on the tumor on Dan's rib where they did radiation a couple of weeks ago and we will be discussing the swelling from the brain radiation as well.

While no one likes to be in the hospital, we felt his stay here was as comfortable as one could hope for.  The room is private (they all are here) and spacious.  The only noise is from neighboring rooms raising or lowering their window shades or from the electronic machines in the room such as his automatically adjusting mattress and the IV regulator.  The wall of windows to the outside makes the room seem even larger.

The hospital is located in  a large commercial area which made getting food/coffee for me easier and helped me more easily augment the hospital meals for Dan......anything to encourage his eating!  

The staff has been pleasant and attentive and we are so grateful for so many blessings in the midst of this hard time!  Emails, phone calls, cards, flowers, dog sitting,  food and visits from so many friends....and prayers untold!  

The plan is to try to keep him "balanced" with his meds now for the rest of this week and then restart his chemo on Monday.  I am hoping the chemo had nothing to do with all of the nausea and that the reintroduction will happen seamlessly.

So.....thank you all for your loving support and please continue to pray for us as we adjust to managing it all at home, especially that we would REMEMBER that God is our Fortress and our Comfort and all is in His faithful and GOOD hands!  

WEDNESDAY'S ENCOURAGEMENT

Dear Friends and Family,

It is early morning...I'm sitting in the dark in Dan's hospital room as I type this;  he is still sleepy..dozing on and off.  The massive amounts of drugs he is on does that to you.

I had  been having a lot of trouble sleeping so yesterday Dan sent me home mid afternoon to rest and try to get to bed early.  Since I didn't have to let the dog out (Tom took her to his home) it allowed me the freedom to go to bed earlier, whenever I felt I could go to sleep.  So I just sort of crashed on the couch for the late afternoon and early evening, trying NOT to nap too much, so that I would have a better chance of sleeping through the night.

I managed to get to sleep a little after 9 p.m. and not awaken until 5:15 a.m.  That is pretty good compared to my recent track record...so I'm THANKFUL!

Last night while I was relaxing at home, Dr. Crane called Dan to tell him that the MRI showed swelling in his brain where the last radiation was done.  That may not sound like good news, but actually, it really IS!  There are drugs that can lessen the swelling and that should give us a better chance of controlling nausea from the chemo and pain medicines much more effectively.  I just found this out this morning.  Dan had not called b/c he did not want to wake me if I were asleep and when I tried to call him at 8 p.m., he was already asleep.   :-)

The docs still have to get him set up on the new med to deal with the swelling effectively and then get the others working in sync so that he can eat and be relatively pain free.

So, we praise GOD for some answers as to what the problem is and petition Him for effective solutions!  Thank you all for praying with us and for us!  We are so grateful for your  walking through this with us!   Jodee (and Dan)

TUESDAY UPDATE:

After only 48 hours at home, Dan has been re-admitted to West Chester Hospital. The nausea persisted and he was unable to keep anything down the last 24 of those 48 hours. So after calling the oncologist this morning, he asked us to come in. After a chat, he ordered an MRI to rule out swelling from the radiation on his brain a couple of weeks ago, or any new tumors, and gently suggested going back into the hospital. It wasn't something Dan was excited about, but he felt so bad, he agreed without much urging. I was already convinced that would be the quickest path to a resolution even though his first stay didn't give us the answers we were seeking. 

Tom and Karla have taken Cocoa home with them so I don't have to time my hospital visits around her needs. That is helpful. And Meg is coming down for a quick visit tomorrow evening. 

Now if I can just get a good night's sleep..........

VISITING WEST CHESTER

Dear Praying Friends and Family,

It's early morning on Feb. 25th...I'm sitting in Dan's room at (UC) West Chester Hospital keeping him company till he gets picked up by ambulance to be taken to The Barrett Center for radiation.  The place he normally receives radiation is right across the parking lot but bc of Medicare regulations, with him being admitted to the hospital, he cannot receive radiation at a "satellite location" so they have to send him all the way downtown.  Yeah.....another reason why we don't want government running our "health care"!!  

Anyway....,the last couple of weeks have been pretty hard on Dan.  He has had multiple issues overlapping with many drugs which all can have multiple side effects.  The bottom line is that his nausea and weight loss were increasing while his eating/drinking and mobility were decreasing and the doc felt he needed to be in the hospital to try to "reset his system" and get the nausea under control and the pain meds working effectively.

Understandably, Dan is not particularly happy about being here, but Dr. Crane and I both agree that he needs to be.  We are hoping things can be righted in 3 or 4 days but time will tell.  Meanwhile Cocoa and I will hold down the fort at home.

My sister, Sue, and her husband, John, are stopping in later today on their way to Florida.  John always gets us laughing and since "laughter is the best medicine", we anticipate his shortening Dan's stay here by a day or so......(no pressure, John).

Thank you for continuing to support us with prayer and encouragement as we go day by day on this journey.  We are so grateful for each of you!   Jodee (and Dan)

PRAISE and PRAYER

(Written Friday, Feb. 7th) 

Hi folks...... Just thought I'd update the last post...sort of a "post-postscript" of sorts.  Today is Friday, Feb. 7th and this morning Dan had his fusion MRI on his brain and his chest CT scan.  The MRI shows only a couple of new spots; one, though, is bigger than usual.  Often, when they do the brain CT scan to create the hologram (which they use for plotting the radiation) they find more.  We are hoping there will not be many more this time.  So...PRAISES for there only being two visible at this point and PRAYERS, please, that they won't find many more.

The CT scan of his torso showed that the tumor we saw externally on his back right before Christmas is, as thought, part of the tumor on his R tenth rib.  Unfortunately, that indicates disease progression (that was also presumed --thus the change in chemo that occurred right after Christmas) and there appears to be new cancer activity in his lower spine, thus his increased pain. Sigh.

Dr. Breneman (the oncology radiologist) called Dr. Crane (our oncologist) to confer and they may decide to radiate that 10th rib and possibly even the locations of disease on his spine to help with the pain.  Right now I'm waiting at Dr. Breneman's office as they create a new mask of Dan's entire head.  That is what they use to totally stabilize his head for the radiation. So...PRAISES that we could accomplish two tests, the Doctor's visit AND the mask creation all today.  PRAYERS, please, that the two docs will figure out how to best alleviate Dan's back pain while not making chemo treatment less effective, and that the radiation of those brain spots would be able to happen quickly and that they would be effective.

I think I forgot to mention in my last update that we had just seen a back specialist for a second opinion about possible treatment for Dan's back pain.  He said that there was so much going on in Dan's x-rays, that it was very difficult to tell where his pain was originating from.....the spine, or the affected rib.  They talked about two different surgical procedures but said that at this point they could not promise positive results.  Dr. Tobler was going to confer with a radiology-back specialist before making more of a solid recommendation.  At that point, we were unaware of the disease progression in his spine found in the CT scan today.  So this complicates things even more. So, PRAISES for such amazing diagnostic tools and educated, experienced physicians to interpret them for us. And PRAYERS please, for just the right interpretation of all the data that has been collected so that Dan will receive the most effective treatment and pain relief.

While none of this "news" is very surprising, I have to admit it is a bit disappointing.  We were hoping that the change in chemo would cause a decrease in evidence of cancer rather than allowing for an increase.  We offer PRAISES, though, that the new spots in the brain, although larger than before, are still small enough to be treated with the miraculous stereotactic radio graphic surgery they have been using.

This next We'd.,(Feb 12th), Dan will have an endoscopy. That is so that a GI specialist can get a look at what is giving him abdominal pain.  We are hoping it is an irritation caused by all the meds rather than more cancer.  We PRAISE God for providing another doc at the last minute so that we could find out what's going on. Please pray that this new. "team member " can come up with a fairly benign treatment that will heal his tummy.  

I'm offering PRAISE that a friend from church was able to get into the conference last minute and so she will be accompanying me.  We will be in different tracks located on opposite sides of Lafayette, but at least we will have someone to eat dinner with and decompress with...and believe me...you NEED to decompress after 8+ hours a day of learning!!  Please PRAY for Meg, as she becomes chief cook, bottle washer and chauffeur for her dad this week while I'm in Indiana...and for safe travels for Colleen and me as we get to drive through more snow (yippee!!) 

Thanks for slogging through all the medical jargon to keep track of us on our "journey".  We need and really appreciate each of you and the support and encouragement you continue to give us and all of the many many prayers offered on our behalf!  
Jodee (and Dan)

SCRAMBLED APPOINTMENTS

Yesterday my sister Sharon, emailed us, telling us that she remembered that that was the day of Dan's MRI.  Some people are so organized! I sat down and began to write an email to explain where we were and realized that it was time for an update…..so here it is:

 She is correct that Tues. was, in fact, the day Dan was SUPPOSED to have his MRI, along with a CT scan and then a Dr.'s appointment.  BUT last Friday the oncology radiologist's office called to tell us that they decided he should have his MRI at another location, which, of course, meant rescheduling. His nurse offered to reschedule it plus the two other appointments we had already planned around that, for this Friday.  I was grateful for that but a bit frustrated that the doctor did not call to tell us about and explain his decision.  It is just one of the many frustrations one faces when things are pretty much out of your control . 

It has been a hard week.  After all of that shuffling around, but on the same day, the office of the doctor who was scheduled to consult about his stomach pain (that appointment was set for today), called to tell us that they had to cancel that appointment and the first new appt. would be a MONTH later!   Dan really cannot wait another month to find out what is going on there.  The oncologist's office said they would find another doctor.  It took them all day to find someone else to do the endoscopy in a reasonable time frame.  That is now set up to take place next Wednesday.     

Anyway........when we saw the oncologist last Tues. and discussed the difficulty Dan is having with his appetite, he prescribed marinol, a derivative of marijuana, to help with Dan's appetite and maybe even enhance the pain meds.  He is losing weight rapidly again  :-(  and is down to 170.  The doc also pulled back on his chemo to lessen the side effects but the plan is to gradually return him to the original dose as the side effects (hopefully) diminish.

The results of that plan are muddied because Dan misread the instructions and was only taking half the marinol (sp?) he was supposed to, which, when you are taking a bazillion meds, is pretty easy to do.  Anyway, he was unable to go to church for the second Sunday because of his back pain and general yuck so one of our Biblestudy friends who is a practicing nurse, stopped by after church to see him.  She told him he needs to pursue better pain management because there are other combinations they can try till they find something that does a better job. (I have been telling him this but he is reluctant to use the strong pain meds, worrying about dependance developing).  But after her pep talk, he let me call the doc to ask if he could take a bit more Percocet.  The doc on call agreed but suggested we ask Dr. Crane for Oxycodone without the Tylenol so he could take more without overdosing on the Tylenol.  We are emailing him about that today.  Never a dull moment! 

We were scheduled to attend our annual Biblical Counseling Training Conference in Lafayette IN starting Sunday.  That is a week long training that runs from 8:30 a.m. till about 5:30 every day and a couple extra sessions in the evenings.  He realizes that he cannot go...there is no way he could sit in folding chairs for 8+ hours every day, but he still wants me to go.  I told him I'm not comfortable leaving him, especially since he can’t drive.   A couple in our Bible Study was willing to stay with him but he hates "imposing" on people.    So I called Meg (we are supposed to impose on our kids, right?) to see if she could work remotely from here that week.  She had an important meeting Monday morning that she needs to BE at, but will come down after that.  Tom will be here Sunday evening and Ill have a friend on call for early Monday so if Dan needs to get anywhere, he will have a ride.  (He is on too many strong meds to drive right now.) Thanks, Tom and Meg!

Now snow is predicted for Saturday/Sunday so I’m keeping a close eye on the forecast for Cincinnati all the way to Lafayette!  One day at a time!

Meanwhile I'm going to physical therapy twice a week for my wretched feet which, as my podiatrist says, are "a hot mess"!  And their being out of whack has created issues with my knees and sacrum...(or did he say it was the other way around?)....you remember the Sunday School song:  .......the ankle bone's connected to the shin bone; the shin bone's connected to the thigh bone; the thigh bone's connected to the hip bone....oh hear the WORD of The LORD!, don't you?    Either way, whether the problem started in my sacrum or my feet, I've got some things to straighten out...literally!   The podiatrist has crafted orthotics for me which I will pick up on Thursday....yet another appointment!  Ah yes!  Mom wasn't kidding when she said "getting old is not for sissies”!!  

This morning we awoke to about 4 inches of new snow topped with a layer of ice.  (The grandkids were off school yet again!  I'm thinking they might have to go a bit longer in June to make up for some of these snow/cold temp days off!) I wasn't sure I'd make it to my physical therapy session, but after digging out about a third of our driveway, my trusty Honda got me up the long lane to where the city plows had cleared.  The roads were still a bit dicey but I got there and back OK.  Today was my third physical therapy session.  The therapist did some more sonic wave treatment and tried some electro-stimulation, but I was very sensitive to that so he said we needed to do more sonic stimulation first.  I now have some exercises to do on my own (ugh) and will do my best to do my part.

What are these interesting objects?  No, my new hobby is NOT paper mache sculpting....These lovelies are the plaster molds of my feet from which my orthotics will be made.   I get them tomorrow.  I’m SO hoping that they help and make walking more comfortable for me, even while the physical therapist is trying to correct my major issues.

Back to Dan….it is THIS Friday that he will have his high definition MRI  (I think that is the reason they had to change the venue) , then a CT scan and then the appointment with his oncology-radiologist.  I always get a bit anxious about this test (yes, I KNOW I shouldn’t but my body doesn’t always listen to my head!) knowing they are looking for brain metastases.  If they find more, I believe they are planning on creating a new mask for his radiation treatments.  The one he currently has is the original that has been used for 5 1/2 years!  So it looks like we will be spending the day in West Chester.

While our highest desire is to embrace God’s plan for us, we don’t shy away from sharing our hopes/desires with our Heavenly Father.  So I’m praying for renewed faith and trust in His plan, all the while hoping that that will include a tumor-free brain MRI this time around. 

So that pretty much wraps up the latest medical news from Ashley Lane.    Even when our schedules get turned upside down and sideways, God knows what's going on at each moment and He won't be confused ;-) although sometimes we are.  Our good friends, Mary Jo and Dwaine know what I mean!!  Sorry about missing lunch with you guys!

Again, and again, we thank you for your prayers and encouragement and willing help.  We are so grateful for the loving support. 

Love ya,  Jodee (and Dan)